Intro. =]

I have now written my little introduction about five times and deleted it five times. This will be my sixth attempt to write a blog. Why it is so difficult to write at the moment, is beyond me! I can't seem to figure out what I would like to say. Well, I guess I should start with my name and who I am, should I? My friend has already taken the responsibilty to rename me, which makes it easier on me, I don't have to go crazy over choosing a fake name to describe me. She has choosen this name for my relationship with my girlfriend is much similiar to the real "Romeo&Juliet" & I am juliet.

Except, I'm asian and a lesbian.

Hopefully, no one of you reading my blog get offended by what I say. Please keep in mind my blogs are usually only a rant, which brings to praying my friends or anyone else reads this. Believe me I love all the people who give me their friendship but it's just the fact that no one truly understands me except, my girlfriend, who seems to know everything about me and get it. If she doesn't, she is doing a good job of being supportive. Maybe, there's a chance they will not know it's me. =/ Although I don't know many people who think the way I do. =/ The only person who knows about this blog is my good friend Martini. She's someone I'd like to think I can truly call my friend, even though she doesn't know much about me. I love that I can come to her about my relationship and even though she doesn't know the answer, I'll feel better about coming to her.

It's extremely hard to find good friends these days. Someone who gets along with my personality, I'm not the funniest person you'll meet, or the most interesting. My mother doesn't let me out much and so I don't have an adventerous life like many teenagers lead. Also, I'm not so social as I used to be, which is most likely caused due to the fact my mother doesn't allow me to see my girlfriend. I was always happy and joyful, i mean sincerely happy. No one could bring me down, until my mother forbidded me to see her. I couldn't find someone I liked talking to just for fun. My whole attitude changed, and I changed. I don't like hanging out around people anymore. Also, like every other teenager, I don't like being in the house. Seems like I'm only ever happy when I'm around my girlfriend who I shall call Romeo. Romeo's voice used to be all I needed but after a long time, you miss their warmth and their kisses. I'm very affectionate so I need physical love too. =/ I do realize I'm lucky she's still with me even though we have a short distance, but sometimes just hearing them isn't enough.

Not only do you know, you can't see them, being in my house would drive you crazy. My mother is always yelling about every little thing you did wrong, and my pre-teen sister is going through that rebel adolescent phase! To top it off Angel, my youngest sister (3) is always screaming or crying because she's not gettting what she wants. My step-father is somewhat of a pervert, also. Always stares at me in a strange manner that makes me extremely uncomfortable. He knows that there's no chance of anything happen for I could deport his ass and ruin his life. =] I believe I'm a strong girl, and I can make it through a lot for my size and age. But like every human being, I have a breaking point. And it seems I'm going to reach that breaking point soon where I'll go crazy. This isn't the first time I've said it, so who knows?



Maybe my queen will rescue me, just like she did the last time.